One thing’s for sure. If one masters the art of loneliness, life becomes rideable.
I have felt lonely within crowds. I have felt lonely when there’s no reasonable reason to. It’s human nature. To feel overwhelmed by all that’s happening. To lose control when you’re hurt or just uncertain.To withdraw inwards into that tiny, cramped nook of the brain. For me, sometimes that nook becomes a fiery devilish being threatening to break me beyond repair.
But sometimes….that nook magically transforms. It has a fireplace, a comforting crackling sound and warmth that equates to an uncanny sense of calm.
That is why I say again. One should master the art of loneliness.
Because in that moment… you can have one of the most important conversations ever…a heart-to-heart with Allah, Your Creator. You can whine, complain, cry, all whilst sitting in that nook, with your knees held tightly across the chest. And warming your toes in the surreal warmth of silence. In that moment you can easily block external noise. And open The Quran to see what HE wants you to know. What HE was trying to tell you all along in HIS BOOk. While you just sobbed and questioned, ‘Why Me?!’, and looked for invisible signs and answers.
It’s Me-time. Simple. Why I choose loneliness instead of alone, is because for me loneliness has a tinge of heart ache not found in the latter. That ache is important. That ache makes you question your life. That ache makes you question your path. It makes you question your decisions. It makes you seek answers. That ache sets things into perspective.
This time can either break you into a million pieces. Or it can help rebuild yourself. It can help you rely on inner strength. To wipe off your tears, get up, dust off the grime, clean the bruises on the knees, and go on walking.
Because it’s just you. And HIM. That’s how it was since you were once strung in the world of souls. That’s how it will be when you stand in front of Allah when life as we know it crumbles. Only HE watches your every move. Only HE witnesses you in every thought and word you utter. Only HE truly Cares.
Holy Quran: Surah Younas 10: Verse 61
And you are not (engaged) in any affair, nor do you recite concerning it any portion of the Quran, nor do you do any work but We are witnesses over you when you enter into it, and there does not lie concealed from your Lord the weight of an atom in the earth or in the heaven, nor any thing less than that nor greater, but it is in a clear book.
Next time you’re lonely. And Alone. Standing in a wide green field under the endless sky, and feeling morbidly trapped.
Don’t. Just Don’t.
Remember that you may be lonely in terms of worldly life and relations. But in the relation that matters more than anything ever will… you’re never lonely. Or alone.
Allah is watching. Allah is listening. Allah is waiting. For you to return.